My daughter is seven weeks old today. My tater tot and creep #3, Taige Simone has turned my world upside down. I thought about writing a post weeks ago to update you all on my adventures as a new mother, but 7, a symbol for completion, stuck out in my mind. It’s so appropriate. Seven weeks ago my pregnancy journey was complete. I became more complete when I gave birth to her. She’s made me better in just her short time here. I understand now that my destiny and impact in this world will be completed through my child(ren) … not myself. That’s inspiring and scary all at the same time. But it is definitely motivation to fulfill my purpose.
So here’s the skinny on getting little Miss thing here. I was actually having contractions as I wrote my last blog. Honestly, I didn’t really know I was in labor. All I knew was I was in pain and felt like crap. All I could think was …”Shay you had better post a blog today because you won’t have another opportunity any time soon.” Talk about intuition! I called the doctor right after I pressed the post button in WordPress. Looking back, I probably should have focused more on the pain I was having, but writing helped to take my mind off of it. I went to the hospital that night and was induced (something I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy) and waited for my moment to push her out. That moment never came. Hours of waiting and I only dilated six centimeters. So it came down to me having a c-section. It was the absolute last thing I wanted to do, but I prayed and listened to my doctors for the safety of me and my little one. So on April 24, 2018 at 2:41 p.m. creep #3 made her debut. She arrived nearly two weeks early, and every day she proves that she indeed has a mind of her own.
What can I say about motherhood , so far? It’s beautiful. It’s rewarding. It’s scary. It’s adventurous. And some days it’s just hard as hell. I’m just being honest. When your child is crying and you can’t figure out why, it’s defeating. When you are running on fumes because of lack of sleep and still trying to take care of home, it’s a bit daunting at times. I’m so thankful that I am surrounded by people who truly love me and check in on me and my family. This journey has been much better because of them.
Overall, I look at my beautiful child’s face, and I know she’s worth it. She’s demanding and sassy already. She moves her head around like a big girl and tries to stand up more often than not. I don’t know where she thinks she’s going . At this very moment, she’s squirming in my arms. Taige is going to be a busy little girl. She’s growing so quickly. I want time to slow down although I’m anxious to see what she’ll be like when she starts to talk and walk. But I know time will go quickly enough, so I’ll relish in the times where I can hold her in my arms and watch her as she sleeps. My husband, creep # 1, is absolutely in love with her. That makes my heart smile. He sings to her when she’s cranky, and she loves it. They are going to be a funny tandem when she gets older. I can’t wait.
Keep me in your prayers as I try to figure this mommy stuff out. I’m sure it gets easier, but I know I’ll never have all the answers. And that’s ok with me.
Duty calls. My creep is hungry and impatient. I’m her personal cow , so I’ll talk to you all later!
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It never gets easier. The difficulty dynamic just shifts as they grow. I couldn’t wait to meet Garesia, the mother, because I knew you’d be you times 50! Lol! And you are! Just as beautifully spirited as always, but now it radiates even brighter! 👩🏽💜👶🏽😘